; love .

Thursday, October 28, 2004

im sorie.

; rachh
4:55 PM

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

forgiveness ?

sigh.
i wanna forgive.
but there's a part of me that's still not willing.
cause baby you cut me deep.
that was one sharp knife you held.
the wound is healing.
but you know. there'll alwaes be that scar.

i dont wanna initiate it anymore.

you take a stand.

that is.. if you want it to happen.

; rachh
10:49 PM

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

hurts.

ouchh.

it hurts.
hurts reall bad.

why am i so affected..

i shouldn't be..

but i am.........................

urghs.

; rachh
4:25 PM

Sunday, October 24, 2004

hellos

just popping by to say hello.hahas.gotta run le.bye.don't worry i wasn't free anyway.so when can we get it done arhs ?? hahaa.takkaire.and yea im fine.just pissed with my dadie now.looooooong story :)

; rachh
9:05 PM

Thursday, October 21, 2004

sweets.

im exhausted rachh. i dunno whether i wanna get out of my house tmr to make my ic.. would you mind if we postpone?? =/ i dunno..

funny bites over the bodyy. most probably from last night. i absolutely hate sandflies. especially those from port dickson. arghhs.

congratulate me. im changing my layout again.. bahh.

rachh. cheer up dear.

; ange
11:15 PM

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

blarhs

ooooops.so sorie angel.im going through a period of self pity ? ahahahs.yarh.so retarded rite ? mms.thank goodness im not running in the elections right ?? or else i think i'll just die.so stressed out for qing already lorhs.hahas.

sigh.been reallie reallie busy recently.everything's just chaotic.extrememly crazie.bombastically errant.don't ask me what that means.i dunno too.hahas.you see how madd im getting.*to choots:i get what you mean when you sayy i jump down liao.

darling*
i noe you hardly read this anymore.cause of some things that you're worried i'll write here.but i just wanna say.im sorie.im reallie sorie for the hurt i've caused you.i didn't do it on purpose to spite you or anything.i wouldn't.cause i reallie truly do care for you.you're the best friend anyone could have.you were alwaes there when i needed a hugg.or a shoulder to cry upon.you were alwaes there to wipe away my tears.and whisper softly into my ear.please don't draw away from me.you say you haven't.but i can feel it.please don't let this get in the way of our beautiful friendship.you're reallie precious to me.forgive me for saying no.

please.

i need you back.

; rachh
10:12 PM

dots.

what the.
rachh.
what's wrong.
oh goodness.
youre freaking me out..
*pulls hair and run about!!
call me up if anything's the matter k??
*hugss.

hmmm to rach's fren jce, thanks. i have a feeling im going downhill in this matter and well. dun learn. cos most probablyy. you do have people there for you isnt it?? =) tk care.

; ange
1:34 AM

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

desperation.

urghs.

im dying.

; rachh
10:44 PM

Sunday, October 17, 2004

scream!!.

sorry. i cant be.
perfect.

its ironic stuff. the toughest person you ever seen might have so much hurt before that he/she built up the wall around his/her heart. facade yes. i have to admit that uh huh. im putting on a facade too. but.. perhaps. for me. its for the good of everyone else. rather to be strong than to be weak and realising that no one will be there for youu if you are. perhaps its an empty shell left there. i know its no good. but.. is there a better way?? im waiting for yoo.

tomei.
who youve found. i sincerely hope thats your yoo. =)
call me up. k?? most prob ill be free. rot at home most of the days anyways. *nods. tk care dear. get well soon yeaa?? *huggs. *mucks.

; ange
3:50 PM

Saturday, October 16, 2004

sick

ohh bleahs.
im feeling hot all over.my voice is getting more and more nasal.and this all suckks.

yarh.
i noe im supposed to be a guai girl.i try to be at least.
but you noe.its hard not to buckle under all the pressure sometimes.
its hard to maintain such a facade.
yeahh.i seem cool under almost every circumstance.i seem like a little angel.alwaes very guai.
but i just aint.
im reallie sorie if i don't live up to expectations.but i aint perfect.i carn be everything everyone wants me to be.
yeah ?

tojie
erms.don't worry about the above.im just ranting.hahas.erms.go next week ? anything larhs.my timing actually quite flexible.not too near the end of october though kae.mms.

i wanna let go.

i wanna fly away.

will you let me ?

; rachh
1:52 PM

Friday, October 15, 2004

fwuahhh.

hello!!

why angry?? *shake head.dun fight with your mama lahh. imagine how she feels.. rachhie is getting defiant ahh?? cannot cannot. sometimes yeaa you ARE supposed to be the guai gurl you are not.

com's laggy?? lols reformat!! i dunno. pple always say that. pple like dom and sam. lols. aiighhts. when you want go make ic?? =))

elmo's world on tv now?? lalalala lalalala elmo's world.. goodness. lols anyways i still wanna watch white chicks!! =/ havent watched it..

k lahhh. me run le. buhhbyyeee.

; ange
1:57 PM

Thursday, October 14, 2004

yays.

ok.
im reallie reallie happy.hahas.now i've got some one to go replace my ic with me ((:
plus plus plus.im angry at my mumie.
*thinks.
should i be happy about that ?? hahas.who cares.i fought with her and it feels good cause i usually just give in to her.and todayy i just couldn't stand it anymore.so i argued back.
mms.having a sore throat and runny nose now.erpxz.so sucky.ohwells.

im in love with a new song-you are the love of my life.
hahas.im stuck at jon's blog now.hahas.just that its abit laggy sometimes.*pouts.
ohh.yarhs.i wanna clarify that toos.this is not just my blog ! its angels toos.so when you linkk.link it under angel and rachel.thank yous !!

hahas.i dunno what to say le.holidays are actually quite a drag.grs.nothing interesting is happening.
better go check with fang yu about tmr's outing !! hahas.
plus.was supposed to go back to pri sch.but due to unforseen circumstances..we didn't.sorie shao jun.made you wait )):
okok.gotta go !! can't wait to go watch movie with my xiao di.*smiles.

; rachh
3:10 PM

ANNOUNCEMENT.

eeeeeek im getting irritated!!

this is not rachel's blog!! this is mine and rachel's!!. *pouts big big and stick out tongue at everyone who is happily linking -pouts- under rachel only.

how is that?? relink people!!

; ange
1:38 PM

bleahhs.

im just wondering bout the losing wallet thingiess. your dad told me that yours aint like dropped but maybe even taken or something ehh??

not done my ic yet. we can go tgt. =) gimme a call or something k?? urghhs so much stuff to do and all. wanted to go bank todayy to do my atm card but my papa and mama's busyy. so yeaa. i still have my ezlink and matric card. ahh i have to go back to sch for that. and sch's so far away!! *sighh.

exams over happy ehh?? i have nothing to do at home everydayy. especially since i dun have a ezlink to go around. hols spoilt?? *shruggs. my birthday's coming up soon btw. ahhhhhhh.

tk care dear. byee.

; ange
1:32 PM

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

sigh

hellos.
i lurve angel toos ! hahas.was thinking of going with you to go replace my ic.haven't replaced it yet cause of the exams and all.but you're sooo fast.sighs.
ohwells.
guess i'll just go myself.

mms.
yesterday marked the end of the exams.

the day before yesterday.joyce and i went through a traumatic experience.
we watched a chicken's head slide.
hahaa.
are you shocked ?
yes.i wrote correctly.it was sliding !!
hahas.we were walking in from the 76 bus stop and then at the pavement near her house.we saw the chicken.
at first we thought it was dead.and cos we didn't wanna walk past it we decided to walk along the road.
we were so shocked when its head started to slide.joyce said smthg like it was beheaded.hahas.we were quite freaked larhs.

hahaa.
the next day before the chinese paper.we told xiaoyun about it.then all three of us started laughing like shitt.we just laughed and laughed and laughed somemore.we laughed reallie reallie hard.
i think its cos we're too stressed out of smthg.but yeahh.we laughed reallie hard.and when the paper was about to start and we had to keep quiet.yun and i just kept coughing.and trying to clear our throats.

manns.the paper was a killer.
especially the li jie wen da and the chang wen suo duan.
it was like erpxz.
just reading the passages' titles was like.haha.this passage is gonna be sooooo boring sorta thing.and you just get turned off.
and true to their names.it was like hahahahaa.what's the passage trying to tell me ? very can answer questions larh.
im predicting i'll get 39/110 for that paper.at best.
so pro rites ? ((:

overall i think the eoys have been quite a breeze.considering i didn't study that hard.that's very good.
hees.
the only thing i won't do very well in is chinese and my humans i think.
hahas.ohh who cares.its all over.

ohh yarhs.
after the chinese paper was over.they gave out like 6 stacks of worksheets.
hahahahaa.so funn rites ?
grs.its like the eoys are just over and they want us to prepare for our Os.they're sickk mann.its like can't we enjoy ourselves a lil in the least.
so bleahs can.

as usual joyce and i went home together.
we were sorta rushing so we could go home and sleep.but i ended up going to her house instead.jenn was like: jie.you so mean.bring home your friend to ci ji me.
hahas.we slacked and we slacked and yarh.slacked somemore.
smthg im very good at.grinns.
basically i found out about some *coughs.and we went testimonial spreeing.hahas.combined testimonial spreeing i might say to be more precise.
mms.and we ate some maggie mee.joyce's had erms.dolly's hair in it ? hahas.dolly is her dog !! ohh and evil dolly killed a bird that day.when her maid told us about it at first we thought the bird was referring to the chicken cause we didn't see it anywhere.but it was actually a lil sparrow like birdie.evil dolly.
then before i went home to slack somemore.we finally got our group bloggie done.hahas.so funnnn.nette.if you're reading this.go check your email and quickie !! join the blog.hahas.

mms.
im still slacking today.
later when mumie comes home from the wake we'll be going out and i wanna burn a hole ((: hahas.naughty me.

byeeee !

; rachh
5:36 PM

loveyouu.

heyy rachhie. me love youu too.

enjoy yourself aiights?? tk care. *hugs.

; ange
2:02 PM

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

done.

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER !!

oh my goodness.im so so so happy.hahahaha.i can finally truly SLACK.hahas.yarhs.quite busy now so i'll blog about what's been happening later kaes.like the stupid chicken with the sliding head and going to joycee's house todayy.tootles.buh byes people.i lurve you all ! :))

; rachh
6:07 PM

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

zombie

six DOWN.

eleven more to go.

yay.

im surviving[barely]so far.

hahaa.

mms.

but the papers haven't been that difficult lorhs.

yesterday.chinese paper one n a maths.

today.english paper two n physics.

on sunday was practising like crazy at fang yu's hse.hahaa.did cedar's sec 3 eoy paper 2003.it was okaee lorhs.better than our school's last year paper.which was like killer.

hahaa.

that reminds me.

hui min !!

where are you ?

okok.back to the point.so for like about 4 hrs straight i just sat there doing paper after paper and identity after identity.hees.fun leh.and because im weak in that so muct practise more.now that i've done the whole TYS' identity questions.i think im quite good at it.

- beams.

ate dinner at her house.then went to church for uncle ron's talk on the Bible and the quran.basically on the quran larhs.its origins and all.ohh.n how its different frm the Bible.was quite funn.reached home.did a lil more maths.went to sleep.

monday was quite okayy.during assembly my sec twos were freaking on me.hahaa.they were asking all sorts of questions.quite cute larh they all.then came chinese paper one.icks.never knew zhang chunyu was so sadist.its like the topics that came out.she went through in class ! and at times when we were all like sleeping ! bleahs.so stupid.

the best part ? my gonghan confirm write out of point le.we're supposed to write from the point of view of the head of smthg smthg.i wrote as myself..urghs.never read the question properly.

a maths was supremely easy.hahas.compared to last year's paper at least.xiao yun was like i know how to do all.then gave me one of those crazy smiles of hers.hahas.i think i can get 90+.only thing i didn't noe was the domain and range thingie.plus must make room for some careless mistakes.hahas.

hen a very extremely retarded thing happened.

it was like i was on the way home with joyce.then she walked into the housing estate to go home(like duh ritee).and i crossed the road to take 156.i was happily waiting at the deserted bus stop.

THEN these 3 lower sec guys came walking by.they sat at the other end of the bus stop.then one came over and was like.excuse me but what's the time.i was like huh.but nevermind tell him the time lorhs.he went back then within a minute later he walked back over and asked me if he could be my friend.err.dotts.i was like erms, no ? he went ok and i thought that was the end of everything.

then he asks:can i have your number.oh manns.he was so damn think skin larh.i was like no.i don't think so.still don't get the point.i just got so frustrated i told him to stop being retarded.haha.blunt ? i dunno.but it worked.he walked back to his friends and was like **** ** ***.hahas.like i care what he thinks.

i dunno but it totally reminded me of annette's situation last time.hahaa.

today was okayy also.hahas.limited vocabulary marhs.

which was totally highlighted today during the english compre.it was on like arranged marriages ? hahas.so stupid.i had too much time after that so i went to recopy all my answers nicely and neatly.then as we were handing up our papers.i saw like everyone else's first answer like 4 lines long ? mine was less than a line.rites.whatever mann.

physics.hahaa.i was banking on the mcq but they weren't like easy lorhs.i could do most of the questions but the more difficult ones were like total killers.hahaa.ohwells.no use crying over spilt milk ritee ? rite.

sorie.talking to myself.trying to persuade myself that everything's okae.hees.tomorrow still have chem.my weakest science.although this year i think bio's gonna take that honour.hahas.

okok.

gotta go study chem.

and lit.

and social studies.

arghs !

; rachh
3:31 PM

Saturday, October 02, 2004

thirty lil' bunnies

30 lil bunnies go bouncing along,
30 lil bunnies go bounce.
if one lil bunny goes snuggle in bed
then 29 bunnies go bounce.

29 bunnies go bouncing along,

29 bunnies go bounce.